This morning was a challenge, y’all.
I work Saturday, Sunday, Monday, and Tuesday, so while some people are enjoying their weekend, I’m starting my workweek. My Saturday is everybody else’s Monday—and this morning, I felt every bit of it.
A Long Night With a Worried Heart
Last night, I went to bed around 10-something and was sleeping pretty good at first. But my oldest daughter was working her very first overnight shift, and this mama was scared.
I woke up around 12:50 a.m. and started calling her. I kept calling until she picked up because I needed to hear her voice and know she was okay.
After we talked, I tried to settle down, but I still couldn’t sleep well. Part of me was waiting to hear that she had made it home. Then, when she finally got there, I thought I would be able to relax—but sleep still wouldn’t come easily.
My baby was home, but my mind hadn’t caught up yet.
The Part of Motherhood That’s Hard to Put Into Words
Being a mom is so scary sometimes, especially in this day and age.
You want to protect your children from everything. You want to be close enough to help whenever they need you. But as they get older, they start doing things on their own, and you have to learn how to let them—even when your heart wants to follow them out the door.
I’m proud of my daughter for taking on something new. At the same time, I’m still her mama. I’m still going to wonder if she’s safe, if she’s doing okay, and if she’s made it home.
I will always do my best to protect my babies, but I know I can’t be everywhere. That’s where I have to lean on my faith and trust God with what I can’t control.
Some nights, that trust comes with a whole lot of prayer and very little sleep.
Getting Up Anyway
When it was time to get ready for work this morning, I was tired. After being up worrying and struggling to fall back asleep, getting out of bed felt harder than usual.
But by the grace of God, I got up.
I got ready and went to work to make that money for me and my babies. It wasn’t an easy start, but I pushed through.
Today, that was enough. I didn’t have to wake up feeling rested or ready for everything. I just had to take the morning one step at a time.
For Whoever Had a Hard Start Today
I hope y’all were able to push through today, too.
Maybe you were up worrying about your children. Maybe you didn’t sleep well, or maybe you woke up with a lot on your mind. Whatever made today difficult, I hope you give yourself credit for the effort it took to get through it.
Someone may be depending on you, but you deserve care, too. I’m reminding myself of that as much as I’m reminding you.
Today, I’m thankful my daughter made it home, thankful God gave me the strength to get up, and hoping tonight brings a little more rest.
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