This morning, I woke up to a refreshing breeze and a feeling I can’t quite explain. For a moment, my mind wasn’t racing through everything I needed to do or everything that could go wrong. I just felt peace.
Have you ever had a morning like that? A morning when nothing has magically changed, but somehow you feel like everything is going to be okay?
That’s where I am today. There’s still plenty on my plate, but I woke up with hope.
God Knows I’m Trying
I truly feel like God is blessing me. In my heart, I picture Jesus putting in a word with His Father, saying, “This time, she’s serious. She’s really trying.”
And I am.
I’m trying to stay on the straight and narrow. I’m trying to make better choices, watch my tongue, and pay attention to the thoughts I allow to take up space in my mind. My thoughts aren’t always good, and I don’t always say the right thing. There are moments when I get frustrated or slip back into habits I’m trying to leave behind.
I’m learning to be honest about those moments instead of pretending I have everything together. When I fall short, I want to acknowledge it, pray about it, and keep working to do better.
Finding My Church Home
Lately, I’ve been listening to preachers on YouTube and making more room for God in my day. I haven’t found a steady church home yet, but I hope I do soon. I want a place where I can worship, learn, and build relationships with people who are also trying to grow in their faith.
Until then, I’m still praying. I’m still talking to God.
I tell Him about my problems, my worries, my children, and the things I’m sometimes afraid to say out loud. Those conversations aren’t fancy. Sometimes I have a lot to say. Other times, all I can manage is, “Lord, help me.”
Right now, I’m grateful that I’m making time for those conversations.
What I Want the Rest of My Life to Be About
I’ve been thinking about how I want to spend the rest of my life. What deserves my attention? What do I want to do differently? When I look back years from now, what will I be glad I made time for?
I keep coming back to four things:
• My health. I want to take better care of myself and stop putting my well-being last.
• My finances. I want to be more intentional with my money and work toward greater stability.
• My children. I want to be present, show them love, and give them an example of someone who keeps trying.
• God. I want my relationship with Him to be part of my everyday life, not just something I turn to when things get hard.
Writing those priorities down doesn’t mean I suddenly have a plan for everything. But it helps me see where I want my attention and energy to go.
Taking This Feeling Into the Day
I know every morning won’t feel like this one. There will be days when I wake up tired, worried, or overwhelmed. That’s part of why I wanted to put this morning into words—to remember the breeze, the quiet, and the feeling that I could face what was ahead.
Today, I feel blessed. I feel serious about making changes, even if those changes happen a little at a time.
There’s still a lot on my plate, but I’m ready to get up and do my part.
Today is going to be a great day, y’all.
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